Confess [your] faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. James 5:  16

I had a very bad habit, it was being addicted to loving me and not myself.  I would give men all of me, that included my body and whatever they would ask for and needed. I was dating this one guy and he was a controling person and he needed to know my every move. I gave him all of me, when I say all, I mean that I gave all and that was not enough, he would ask for things that I was not willing to do and when I would not do them he would get very abusive. One day I was eating and I was not eating fast enough for him because he thought that the short pants that I had on were too short, he wanted me to go change. When I just kept eating he slapped the food out of my mouth, he hit me so hard.  I have always heard of the saying, "he hit me so hard that I saw stars," Now I know it can be done. I saw stars for about 20 minutes, that is how hard he hit me. I was not doing anything, my short pants were below my knees and he just thought they were too short. I stayed in this relationship for about 2 yrs.  I was afraid to leave him because of the threats that he had made on my life and I never told anyone about this person that he was until it started to show. I had a black eye and everyone wanted to know where it came from and I could not tell them that the man that I said that I was in love with beat me so bad and gave me that black eye, how would my family react and what would he do to me when we were alone. So I lied as I always did. I would always make up this great guy to my family, he was a wonderful person around my family. There was nothing that they asked that he would not do. But thank God for a Praying Mother, a real and Virtuous Woman of God. I have always heard her say that warnings come before destruction and I truly do believe that. One day I was getting ready to go on vacation with my Mother and Aunt, he was angry because I was out shopping all day and he could not get in touch with me, when he finnaly did he stated lets spend the rest of this time together and I will take you to your Mother's house in the Morning before you leave. I agreed, what a very big mistake. He beat me so bad, my face burned, he broke all the nails that I had on my hands, he punched me like he would punch a man and I could not do anything, I could not holler, move or anything. When I was able I just jumped out of the car and ran for my life, he was trying to kill me that night and he told me just that out of his mouth. He kept yelling at me GIRL I WILL KILL YOU FOR PLAYING WITH ME, at that point I was wondering what I had gotten myself into, if he killed me who would have known, we were in a place where there was not much around. But as I stated again THANK GOD FOR A PRAYING MOTHER, she told me that she was Praying for me because she knew something was wrong and I was afaid to tell anyone. I ran into the Police and they stopped and put me in the car and then went to find him, he went to jail and in the midst of all the court appearances, I found out that he had served time for killing his girlfriend and if I would have not found the will power to run I would have been his next victim. I KNOW THAT GOD IS GOOD BECAUSE HE WAS WATCHING OVER ME THAT NIGHT AND KEPT ME HERE TO SERVE HIM AND ONLY HIM. This happen in 1997 and I have been physicallyl man free since, I was delivered and set free from that addiction to men and now I have a new man in my life and HIS NAME IS JESUS AND I AM SO GLAD THAT HE FOUND ME AND HELP TO TURN MY LIFE AROUND BEFORE IT WAS TOO LATE.......I PRAY THAT THIS HELPS SOMEONE, BECAUSE WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU THAT THEY LOVE YOU, THEY CHERISHED YOU, AND TREAT YOU LIKE A VERY PRECIOUS VESSEL. ABUSE IS NOT FUN AND IT CAN LEAD TO DEATH, BUT I AM TRULY BLESSED AND I AM A LIVING TESTIMONY. THANKS FOR ALLOWING ME THIS TIME TO POST MY TESTIMONY!!! Vicki        Tennessee                Backgrounds compliments of: Midi: Praying Spirit Samuel Tolbert